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Hi I'm Fran, I have 19 years and here's my story:
It all started when I was 14 years. My group of friends met the friends of this girl and we became very close friends, we saw every day. Were going on every day and I wanted more. One evening he confessed my feelings and she told me she did not want boyfriends who had just emerged from a list of months.
The days passed and I increasingly mad love. Very occasionally I still show my feelings. I never said no, just shut up and sometimes even crying. One night we went a little crazy with the alcohol, we found many kisses. The next day she told me not anything, just told me not to remember. I died in pain as I was always looking embobado.
Followed the passing years and she began dating a boy. We had less friction at that time. We were almost a year fighting for my fault. 9 months ago to discuss it again and fix it, everything remained as before, she had not changed and still with that guy. He went off to study a lot and we lost contact, but now will be about 2 or 3 months we talked on MSN a lot. She told me how badly you treat your boyfriend and I stopped and turned and finally told me that left him permanently and I told her what I felt and I did not say anything, always keeping their feelings.
Now I have 19 years and returned to our village for Christmas. Just yesterday I was with her and today I went to my car to the village where his mother passed it on Sundays and holidays, and going by your door I saw her supposed "ex boyfriend" at her door, waiting in the car. I returned to destroy the soul again, I lost count, I do not know what to do and I can not forget ... and more "evil" question that I can not forget or even for a day. There are days that I lift without having to think about it or dreamed it. My life is total shit, no sense of anything you find and live the day waiting to come to my arms, but it hurts me to think that that day may never arrive. I've tried to forget about having girlfriends, etc., but I can not. Whenever I leave my girlfriends.
I do not know how long this will last. She always told me that I had much love and see me as a friend and we can not have anything else to me. I want to give me advice on what I do, but I think I will pursue until the day I die. Have been many nights crying over her and the many moments we have lived and still live. Help me, please.
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