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For 17 years I'd never love, never had a boyfriend, much less even, had never kissed a boy. Always believed in true love, which is why, from 15 years, dreamed of one day meet the right person to share a beautiful love story. Let's say you expected more or less what any silly, innocent girl he wanted ... "His blue prince." But that guy never came. I was already tired of waiting. It was the only group that had never been in love. A college buddy was behind me, but I was not prepared to liar me with anyone, as I advised my friends. I would not kiss anyone if you do not feel, if not love. I always dreamed that my first kiss had to be someone very special ... but spent the time and someone that never came. I started to think there was something wrong with me and I began to pay in pursuit of my great love. I thought you never find that kid with that dream ... until he appeared, Bruno, the love of my life.
Bruno was the new student in school, it came out. It is very handsome, nice and friendly. From the first moment I saw him I fell in love with the loss, but cost me much to realize that. You see, it was like "guaperas" in class, many of the girls were crazy for him and he in turn seemed to be believed. I did not want to be a more, not wanting to be like all the girls who babe bans, and therefore rejected it constantly and I departed from it. Told everyone that I fell ill and I refused to hold a conversation with him, although they knew that in the background every time you saw me trembling hands I made me nervous and very strong heart beat. However hard they tried, could not avoid looking at it when I saw, and put on silly eyes every time I knew that was near mine. I did not want to be like other slugs, but like all fell on their networks. That is why I hated it so much, for what felt so strong without wanting to feel it, that I did not dare to pronounce or say or recognize, but in substance much in the background he knew what he was, what had so longed to have but in those moments I was panic ... the love I felt for Bruno.
As time passed, and everything remained the same, I refused to talk to Bruno, and neither do I sign up one day, Professor of Philosophy command to perform a work of great importance and was to choose couples. Curiously, I play with Bruno. Never imagine that would be my partner. Call it as you wish ¿destiny, fate, coincidence? I dunno, I just thought that was just in the movies and I know that thanks to that job I could really know Bruno.
That same day we were in the cafeteria to work. I felt strange; I did not know whether it was anger or happiness. We talked many hours and then I realized we had many things in common, and that was not what I thought, quite the contrary, a sensitive boy, and very funny. After knowing a person, I realized I loved him even more that night was the first that I dreamed about it.
Time passed and we became great friends. We spent many hours together, we shared many things. Until one day, on a trip, I said. I was alone on a bench, waiting for my friends who return to buy sweets. I was listening to a love song, my favorite song, he sat beside me, I take off a headset and put it in his ear. Soon began to hum the song, and after a few moments, I wonder what the thought as I listened, I told him I was imagining myself dancing with a very special boy that song. (As always I was dreaming and imagining my life with Bruno, but not what I said) Suddenly, I look at both sides to see if they were alone, if you get up; a hand grabbed me and asked me if I wanted to dance with him. I stop and I go to, and began to sway, we just moved. When I have the song (very hard for my taste, it was already started) told me he wanted me and kissed me. That was how I got my first kiss.
But my love story has no happy ending. I asked Bruno to say nothing of ours until I would tell my friends. I am very shy and I can express things, and wanted them to know me and not for others what I felt. Besides he hated gossip and did not want anybody on my mob. Bruno, I accept as a good knight. The next day, the gathering was to all, when it appeared Laura, my best friend. She also had to tell me something. I told her that she began to speak, because I wanted when all were. (Why have I made that decision, if I spoke first, would not have to suffer what I suffer now The point is that Laura, told me he was in love with Bruno, and never felt anything like it. I told him that he understood ( she did not know how much it meant, because I felt the same thing) At the time I went with fear, nervousness, and I decided not to say anything. I did not want to hurt my best friend. Afterwards I told Bruno that broke with and that he did not like. he falls ill, but I was shattered that night I could not sleep so much mourn.
They spent two and a half months, and Bruno did you hear what Laura felt, and realized that that was why it had stopped. He told me that could never look at Laura and I loved her and wanted to follow me, to talk to my friends, the situation is settled and that was always leaning on my side (not a cute, little boys ay well, with me playing the lottery, I was lucky) I also refused and told me that neither would give in and that would not afford to lose (to me it sounded corny, but honest, is a very sensitive guy ...)
From that moment began a relationship in secret, hiding from my friends. Already a month ago about all this. And I feel very guilty for what I am doing; I feel that I am a bad person, a traitor and a bad friend.
Every time Laura tells me she feels my hand your heart. It's hard to live well and still do not understand me and my boy endures. But the thing is that I love Bruno and I have much to be away from him, they do not want to hurt Laura, although I know that sooner or later, when he finds out I'm going to hurt. I have thought many times to talk to her, but the words never leave me. I can not, just beyond the I, is stronger than me. Never thought I could live it. I always dreamed to be the protagonist of a novel, but mine has no happy ending and I do not like. Whatever happens to lose someone, are hurt someone I want, but who, to my best friend or my Prince Charming? What do I do?
Well, this is my story. Bruno if the name of my boy, but Laura was invented by someone famous reads this, you do not recognize.
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